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How i found out I was Pregnant


been over a year and this memory is still fresh in my mind ,my sister and i were at home just goofing around and out of the blues I said , I think I'm pregnant we laughed and  then she ask "how do you know ? " i told her because my tummy  looked a bit bloated plus I check my period Calender "which I always kept up to date " and I was 4 days late, she said ok well buy a test to be sure, later that same day I ask her to buy a test when she went on the road and she did and to No surprise I was!, i will never for get the date  October 4th 2016 the exact and only pregnancy test I took will be attached.
At first when I thought I was pregnant I didn't cry nor was I sad but I was low-key praying I was not , I didn't want to be pregnant and I so wasn't ready for a baby I was only 23 living with my mom and whom still took care of me like I was a baby .i was in my prime and just started living like a young and free woman but after the test confirm that I was indeed pregnant  I cried for days, for 2 months after finding out I hide it from everyone, only my sister and best friend knew about it. I thought I had just ruin the future I was building for myself,  how will I continue my education instead of working and saving for my own needs I will have to be funding a child's growth and that made me cry even more. For the first few months I blame the child I was caring, his father and myself I hated the world and just wanted to be by myself, my emotions were all over the place and I couldn't control it.
It was scary worrying about what everyone would think, how would my mother react,my school mates and most of all how will my Ex ( I was dating someone else 5 months before ,he and  I were together  for 3 years prior) we stay connected via social media  (WhatsApp  mainly) and I highly respected him. I may have also had it in mind that we could get back together and this will just ruin that for me.when I was 3 months pregnant I resign to the fact that, this is how things are and I shouldn't hide what will only be more pronounce in a few months, so I rip off the bandaid and told my Ex, he was surprised but very Supportive and encouraging after that I was like a open book to those who were close to me except my mom she didn't find out until I was 5 months.
There is no surprise that people will be disappointed and judge you when you get pregnant in your teens and early 20s, that was my expectation but to my surprise most people were encouraging and supportive of me. Times has change in many ways because some even express that at 23 most people have atleast their 1st kid and going to their 2nd so there should be no shame only pure joy.
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